Wednesday, December 31, 2003
[1:13 AM]
felt much better now.
but! but but but... now i got pissed by my cca. again... yes... again... its like fine enuf china man might thought he wanted to give me the hardest job. and sooo it will seem like im no committed to my very own cca. he made me involved in the orientation camp. and sooo i couldnt pay much attention on my cca. and now someone... of the 2nd highest rank in the unit... got unhappy with me. why? cos i cant get the proposal ready. its like... why must it be me whos doing it?! just because i copied down stuff we discussed like a secretary when im the vice-chair... that doesnt mean its my job to do the admin stuff! alrite i know i thought like obviously i have gotta do the proposal cos i made notes about the discussion. and sooo what are the admins gonna do?! lay around shake leg and get name and rank??!!! wah fuck! people should know the obvious administrator im referring to who did nothing but showed his enthusiasm and got a higher rank than me. same goes to the rest of the peeps in the committee. leaving me alone doing such admins stuff. im really really beginning to have more hatred towards my cca more than i used to have. i guess i had been blind all this while. kener buli sakz ni macam! dah sekarang... yg 2nd highest rank in our unit tu got a bad impression of me. dah lah memang bad. makin bad sekarang jadiknyer. just because i had to put all my time only into the orientation camp. balek sampai late petang discuss tu discuss nie... than expect me to be involved in cca lakz! rabakz sakz! like obviously purposely making me seemed like im no more devoted towards my cca. cummon lah i dont do all this just for the points and all that okay... i always put my heart into whatever im doing... not enuf? my heart and soul alrite... haiyoh... lagi cepat sec 4 cca suspended lagi bagus... tak sabar lagik dah...
mink. ciao.
and yet my cca got me pissed again... how exciting life could be...