Relentlessly Superior.

Friday, December 17, 2004
[11:10 PM]

oh anyway... yeah so i got MI's science stream. kinda impressive i thought given the fact that there is only one science stream out of the five. 2 of which are arts and 2 others, commerce. but then... the thing is... im just not interested in MI. never have been. i thought since i didnt want to lose out much on studies (3 months worth lehh...) i should just go for it. nothing to lose anyway. but looking back at the Os, i realised i was struggling through the sciences papers. especially chem. so i thought there is a high chance of me going to poly instead and not making it to jc. so now im thinking of pulling myself out of the 3 months course. if it had been a jc instead, i would have been keen to go. but MI? i dunno... im just not interested in MI. heard how slacky the students are. no offence to whichever MI student reading this. and the worse thing is, it's highly malay populated. well at least that's how i see in public. hardly see chinese students in MI uniform. gah i have got nothing against my own race but i just cant live in a place congested with our people. im not racist asshole! how can i be racist to my own race? just cant live in that kinda condition. sigh. so how? dad hasnt given me a positive reply. so im not sure if this dropping thing is agreeable. my mum agreed though but she doesnt have much power to control the situation. i gotta convince dad that 3 months in MI is not necessary. even if i make it to jc, the worse thing would be to do some catching up. which i hope wont be too difficult for me. i have to take note though in jc i have to always be on the perk. no more slacking. with 3 months worth of studies still to catch up with, it's gonna be more sleepless nights i suppose. alah if i cant stand jc then quit lorh. eh what kind of attitude is this? havent make it yet already admitting defeat. no wait im not admitting defeat dammit. im just figuring out the pros and cons. sigh. wish me luck people. i really dont want to go to MI. oh. gosh. pray to Allah. He knows best.

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