Saturday, February 19, 2005
[2:17 AM]
alright, i've already made up my mind. i'm quitting school. well actually i have already seen myself as a dropout. arman was right. my pride and dignity have priority over anything else. i have stopped coming to school since tuesday but only told ms zaibah last night. and i'm getting the withdrawal form on monday to officially quit. so at the moment, my absence is considered as truancy. heh. being delinquent has never felt sooo good. and none of my classmates knew about it yet. i can't bear telling them. i can't bear exposing the truth behind it. it's not for the world to know. so i would really appreciate if people stop asking me about it. ask me no question and i will tell no lie. thanks Q, for that catchline.
i think i owe ryan a huge apology. i feel so bad for thinking it was really him. he's purely innocent. sigh. and i dunno how karen's gonna react to it. i shall just sit and wait for her to call me. just hope she won't be too upset. oh fuck! i AM gonna meet her later! fuck that barbeque! how am i gonna explain to her... i already feel bad telling idec about it. this is crazy... i should just piss and die. end of story.