Relentlessly Superior.

Saturday, June 18, 2005
[12:04 AM]

after all the meeting, brainstorming and all those crap, in the end we had to scrap our PW idea. because well urm i dunno if i should be saying this on the WWW but well it concerns the education system of our country and by doing this project we are taking the risk of getting poor grades or even failing our PW (is that possible?). cos the markers are gonna be people from MOE themselves. we don't have the right to tell them there's something wrong with our education system even if that's not what we meant. they are gonna see it that way. well at least that's what the seniors think. but whatever it is, the bottomline is we are screwed. with only a week left to the deadline of the first draft of our GPP, there's nothing much that can be done. and with the exams just around the corner, i think all four of us are gonna be in deep shit. especially me since i'm the group leader. oh why why am i the group leader... i'm like forever a PW group leader... since secondary school lah... and in this case i didn't have any say in it cos our PW teacher selected the leaders herself. so i just had to agree. it's not that bad lah actually not like i have more burden than the rest but just that i'm having high expectations of my ownself... jc PW is a serious thing lah we can't just crap around with it... and i'm really really worried. but thank God at least i have members that are absolutely terrific. i can't ask for better people to be in my group. really. but great teams don't necessarily produce great results.

and i'm more worried about my studies! argh! all i did today was chapter 2 of international history. and i didn't even complete it lah! there's still SEA history... there's till econs... there's still othello... there's still long day's journey... and there's still the remaining chapters of int hist... and still gotta read up for GP... i wanna die! somebody! please! kill me! ~~BANG! i'm dead.~~ okay that was lame... but my point is it's impossible for me to complete everything in one week and get at least an E for each subject. wayyyyy too impossible... i don't wanna study here anymore... send me to italy please... just lemme do fashion designing there... this is killing me... no i mean torturing me. i won't die by going through all this. but i suffer. boohoo. boohoo.

hmm. ARGH heck lah... but i really feel deprived. being terribly broke doesn't help either. you know i have been waiting for the arts fest with much anticipation since God knows when but i can't go for a single show this year. why? cost firstly i'm broke and secondly, even if i have all the money in the world, there's no time to squeeze the shows that i wanna go for into the annoyingly tight schedule of mine. i feel sorry for ata and joel cos i know how much they had wanted to go for al-hamlet, especially joel, but i simply can't. and i feel sorry for myself too cos i have always wanted to attend the arts fest. every year i would have to give it a miss, telling myself, okay next year i will make sure i go, but i keep telling myself the same thing every single year! it's going nowhere. nowhere baby nowhere...

i'm so deprived of arts. i'm so deprived of arts. i'm so deprived of arts. do i have to make it anymore clearer to you? i'm so deprived of arts. and when was the last time i designed something? i have not opened my sketchbook for ages man! it's probably dusty now. so much of having holidays... thought i could finally settle down and do what i have stopped doing since school began this year. but i was so so wrong. ah, the beauty of life... it's just wonderful...

first it was the fashion fest. then the arts fest. what's the next big thing i'm gonna miss? fashion week? fashion fiesta? GREAT. ah but of course, there's rapture. hehe...

anyway... ahhh my greatest congratulations going out to joel and ata for making it as the not-yet-official captain of the debate team and oh-so-official captain of the netball team respectively. each with oh-so-wonderful position in their respective cca. and me? haha! prolly the president of the dustbin duty, making sure every dancer do their dustbin duty so the ants won't crowd and infest all our pretty shoes. hahah! oh God... i'm sorry there's something wrong with me i think cos it's like late already and i just came back from town with her, after our vain attempt to study failed, not surprisingly. so i'm like tired and dozing off already but still feeling hyper for no apparent reason...

oh i think i know why. cos i saw this gorgeous pair of jeans at flesh imp, it was so gorgeous i nearly bought it with her money. ahhhh i think i'm in love with it... and it's selling at half price for God's sake! 40 bucks! oh baby oh... why must i be broke at this point of time... i could have used her money first true but where the hell am i gonna get the money to pay her back? dig it from my arse? wait for it to appear out of the blue? oh the most classic one, fall from the sky? but whatever shit it is, that pair of jeans is my top priority. just hope it won't sell out so quickly...

bloody hell she has PARKING LOT PIMP's latest album! i'm super jealous okay! haha... no lah but i'm the one who's suppose to own it! lol. she's suppose to have rafe's album... not MY PLP! i'm so evil. haha klah fine lah kidding lah... but PLP is just great. vanessa is hot woooooh! ahhhhhh... why oh why... urm i dunno why i asked why actually... and i kept on pressing the F11 key by accident it's so annoying bleargh. my eyes are heavy. nite!

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