Wednesday, July 27, 2005
[8:36 PM]
i took it. i hold it. the touch mesmerizing. the smell intoxicating. but it was wrong. as painful as it might be, i had no choice but to snap back to reality.
--------------
it was the first day of our Learning Fest and boy was it exciting! note the sarcasm. okaylah it wouldn't have been that bad if they had not offered some of the courses, like Maths and Movies (explaining to us the mathematical concepts involved in certain movies). like, who cares! i would rather watch A Beautiful Mind all the way from beginning to the end. that movie rocks my socks btw.
it doesn't end there.
tomorrow, i will have to go for this course called The Quintessential Aesthetics of a New Age Man. i'm trying to hold back all my swearings but i can't f***ing do that cos i still can't make the f*** out of that f***ing course! FREEEEEEEEEEEEAAKK!
but Salsa just now wasn't that bad. i thought it was kinda boring cos it was too basic. we had fun though thanks to the people present (almost half were dancers heh). ahhh we dancers are just so cool. HAHA! but really, it would have been much more enjoyable if they had taught us more stuff and spending less time repeating those simple steps for 146201847 times. it was cool though. and it was fun watching non-dancers learning Hip Hop. they learnt our Hollaback steps, the bananas part, which i hate the most. Hollaback steps so difficult can. haiyer... i think the non-dancers did a much better job than me. they took like only 2 hours or so to learn while i took more than a week. heh. oh well... oh and one of them actually came up to me and asked: "is this the Hip Hop class?" i said yes. and she said: "oh. i thought we're gonna learn how to breakdance." i could only smile and say "oh, no no we're not breakdancing." CUMMON LORH! even we dancers are not allowed to breakdance, that Mrs Chia made clearly to us when we first came in. breakdance wth... i wanted to laugh at her face but hahaha i'm not that mean lah... in case you never knew... lol
i'm sufferring from what i perceive as the post-Rapture syndrome.
Symptoms:
- laziness
- neglecting studies and homework
- ponning school
- sleeping in class
- non-stop feeding of your ownself
- sleeping all day long like there is no tomorrow
- gaining weight
- not giving a damn about other people around you except for your own fellow dancers
ahhhhh can't help it lah. i'm still exhausted from the endless practices and rehearsals we had on the days (and nights...) counting down to Rapture. i'm not ready to be back doing all the normal stuff and leading a normal life. life without books and lecture notes and tutorial sheets for the whole of last week was purely transcendental (NAVRAS! heh).
--------------
they are flowers when it all started. you will be amazed at how fast they are able to morph into bees. and you sit there thinking: what the hell am i doing? yet you would never learn the lesson. and the process goes on again. it's just so typical of us to think it will always get better as you carry on searching. that's because you keep on telling yourself you are stronger now each time you fall and desire for perfection keeps on pushing you to go on and pursue even further.
don't i ever get sick of living in denial? the agony is unbearable. come take me away.