Sunday, October 09, 2005
[2:46 AM]
birthdays. they bring back a lot of memories. sweet. and bitter. but they are memories and they will always be a part of me.
i began walking down memory lane visiting the different stages of my life that i went through and had passed, glad that it did, sad too that i couldn't stay long nor experience it all over again not even for one last time.
it felt almost like the essay i wrote once about this boy whose life passed by him as he was about to die and he began remembering seeing this particular sign "ST" so often yet not knowing what it stands for till that very moment. it's St. Peter. only then he realised that it's been trying to tell him that he won't be around for long.
it was written as a first person narrative and Mr Guru failed me and asked me to get back down to earth. how corny :)
well folks, those were the days.
but now, it's time to face the future challenges, awaiting me with its mouth wide opened like a dragon that has not eaten for days ready to suck me in wholly. as i enter this next stage of my life, my age shall be my sword. and the experience i have brought along with me shall be the armour, heavy but concrete. its shine shall reflect on the enemies well enough i won't have to make the same mistakes again. or fatality might be the end result. and by then, eternity is the place to be.
death death death. i'm becoming gothic, not physically, and it's scaring me. ironically.
anyhow, i have had a wonderful birthday, though it could have been much better with the presence of certain people. nevertheless thanks to those who cared and the wishes are very well appreciated thank you once again :) and thanks no thanks for the weird things you lovables did today, like jael and saidah and arman. hahaa. arman go sell your fishies in peace. PEACE. heh.
just a sidenote: i'm broke. so keep the presents coming! lol. oh how lovely it would be to have money falling from the sky! i need a simple job that can allow me to earn money without having to work extremely hard. i don't wanna be jeapordising my chances of getting into the university (that is by not doing well for my studies of course). and only moments after telling atalia about the work thingy 2 days ago, something happened and it made me see that light shining at the end of the tunnel. it might not be as bright. but it's still something. i can't wait to get to it. though the distance seems to be growing larger each time i tried to get closer. have faith boy. you have to believe.