Saturday, October 29, 2005
[12:46 PM]
when i tell you the stars flash signals, each one dreadful,
you would not turn and answer me
"the night is wonderful",
i will read ashes for you if you ask me
i will look in the fire and tell you from the gray lashes
and out of the red and black tongues and stripes,
i will tell how fire comes
and how fire runs as far as the sea.
but would you remember it was me?
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so the school year ends. no baloons, party hats to suggest its festivity. not even when knowing this would be the last time we would be here at malan road.
what ever happened to all those memories?
what ever happened to the time we spent together as one saint family?
the haven the caf has always been to us. the SC that we adore just so much.
are we gonna leave everything behind just like that?
i'm overwhelmed with memories i can't leave behind. why had you only come towards the end? why had i not realised your existence since the first time i stepped into this fateful place?
but i'm just as glad that you are the end and not the beginning. the end is sweet. which shall make the next beginning even sweeter. hopefully.
and yes, i'm still waiting...
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chapel yesterday was great. thanksgiving. i owe a million thanks to God.
i thank God for the O level results.
i thank God for giving me the opportunity to be part of the saints family.
i thank God for the decision made in taking up dance instead of council.
i thank God for class 05A11.
i thank God for His guidance and perseverance months leading to Rapture.
i thank God for PW.
i thank God for my PW group.
i thank God for the leadership positions i have been trusted to.
i thank God for the promos results.
i thank God for the promotion.
i thank God for the many friends i have been blessed with.
i thank God for showing me what true love means.
i thank God for always being there for me, for us.
i thank God for the many blessings.
i thank God for whatever He has given me.
and i thank God for the strong and everlasting faith i have in Him.
in contrary to the common perception, being in a christian school and attending chapel did not make my faith for Islam sway a single bit. in fact it makes it stronger.
but i'm saddened by the fact that the busy jc schedule is drifting me further and further apart from God. i always end up being too tired to pray, having too much homework to think about praying. it's been quite some time since i last completed all five prayers.
maybe that's why i don't deserve anything from Him.
time to repent.
i'm scared. next year's gonna be a tough ride. and i'm scared i won't be able to survive it.
and she didn't say anything that might help spur me to work harder. blank.
jamie cullum is good. catching tales is good.