Thursday, November 17, 2005
[7:06 PM]
but anyways... i guess we do need a break. but i just don't know what to do at home. i would rather spend the whole day in school
but seriously i'm trying my very best not to collapse on various surfaces due to an unexpected injury on the top of my left foot. God knows how much it hurts!
ahh i guess i should carry on with my own choreography. a lot of work that one. can't help but think Zaki's latest choreography is so suitable for my music. by the way, Kanghao did an awesome job on the music. they sound so perfect now! many thanks dude!
i need to start studying.
the question Jilyn asked me yesterday on whether i would allow my girfriend to go clubbing without me really made me ponder. my answer was yes i would. but the reason why i would is because of the way i'm being brought up, not because i believe in women's rights or freedom crap (not being chauvinistic here). Dad has always been pretty strict on Mum. and whenever she's not happy with Dad not allowing her to do this or that, she would throw it all out on me. i don't really like to hear about the problems between my parents but i don't wanna be a bad son and tell her that. so i decided that if i were to have children, i shall not allow them to face such a thing. hence my answer to Jilyn's question.
but tradition will always be tradition. guys will always feel it is their right to protect their women and this is seen by the women as restriction of their freedom. so am i or am i not in the right position? well i guess it is all about balance. know when to say yes and no. but often the decision that we make never satisfy the other party. hey, the earth is spinning!
i don't plan to get married anyway so why bother. but then again, i don't wanna be living all alone. i'm just afraid of the added responsibilities of having wife and kids. but getting married and having children is my responsibility as a Muslim. ahh i shall just allow nature to take its course.
so since i'm free on Saturday, we can have the Rayer outing then then? i heard not many people can make it on Sunday anyway...