Relentlessly Superior.

Saturday, August 26, 2006
[10:47 PM]

Ladies and Gentlemen, as of tomorrow, I'll be embarking on the journey of self-realisation, self-evaluation, my last chance to prove to myself (and those who think the same way as I do) that I am not imbecile. Oh yes surprise surprise, I'm not. God it's really difficult when you have tutors and lecturers telling you that you don't have brains you know. Of course, it's not personal, nothing is ever personal, because they say it to everyone in general. Which is clearly ironic; how can the whole lecture theatre be filled with brainless morons, not even a single brainy child? Talk about being stupid. Gosh.

But of course we are totally over that. We've managed to grow skin so thick that nothing anybody say will be able to penetrate and struck right through our hearts. So as I was saying, tomorrow is THE day, our first paper for the prelim. Most of the other colleges have already had theirs so we're kinda one of the slowest but thank god we are because I am honestly still not ready. It's crazy. Funny how this is considered to be our rehearsal for the A-levels. Because normally participants should be prepared and know their stuff inside out for rehearsals but this is definitely not the case, not for me at least. Falling once too often tend to make you give up hope. But while I haven't, I'm not sure what to hope for either. It's tiring you know, it really is.

So enough of the rants, wasting my time over something unproductive, and time to finish up my last minute revision on literary techniques for Lit tmr. It's Pract Crit, and I really hope I have stuff to say about the unseens. Once you notice me looking around the hall aimlessly and looking at you trying to get your attention and eye contact in the middle of the paper, you will know for sure I have run out of things to write and therefore require your eye contact so I can make use of my powers to absorb whatever you are thinking at that moment. Do be generous and help me out, okay?

Bon voyage.

PS/ I'm hereby banning all of you from asking me out during this period, from now till the last week of November, and to even tell me how much fun ur having with so-and-so shopping and going to the movies, because I'll make sure that'll be the last time you'll ever get to have fun. But feel free to ask me out for study dates, or late night destressing only if it's required :)

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