Tuesday, August 08, 2006
[3:01 AM]
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. You must post this on yours.
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who says i'm done lamenting my post-Rapture withdrawals huh hahaha.
some general comments regarding Rapture@esplanade this year:
* rather angsty given titles such as Faded Abyss, Purged Sanctity, Scarlet Fever, Lonesome Lullaby, Soul Disquiet (they haven't heard of the full title of my item haha; Asmaradana, The Return of the Lover). so indeed we are a little more sappy and emo this year but don't you think it's better and more professional!? too many fun items can get quite school concert-ish and that's not what we are aiming for so yup.
* too difficult to be understood by the layman audience as compared to last year. ah i don't know how to deal with this. urm, try to appreciate more? it's not that difficult seriously. every movement tells a story and every step taken expresses a certain feel so that should give you a simple guideline.
i'm missing danceeee! period.
i went down to Marina Square earlier to develop photos from Rapture and walking through Citylink towards Esplanade to catch my bus home i was overwhelmed with the not-too-distant memories of that wonderful and blissful opportunity given in fulfilling every performer's dream. oh.
people are being too generous and kind with their comments that they got me longing for something awful, something bad, something that would just crush my ego into pieces. but i'm grateful for the positive response especially from Insyirah. thanks but you really should start saying something bad about me already. haha okay i'm kidding.
i am kidding because these are the rare times when i would feel less of a pea brain. no matter how smart i may think i am people around me tend to suggest otherwise and it is not funny (it has never been) because it brings your morale down. it's hard to not think of myself as a failure but deep inside i know i really am not because eventually success is subjective as it depends on our own capability. so screw you if you think i am a failure. and screw yourself if you think ur a failure too :) we are special in our own ways.
okay Insyirah, let's get screwing. haha okay corny joke sorry. but if only my parents think the same as you do :/
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so, National Day. as i was once told, we are commemorating and celebrating the day we got kicked out of Malaysia. i know, evil isn't she, whoever who said that to us? where's that sense of loyalty to your nation man. okay who am i to say that when i myself have absolutely no sense of patriotism whatsoever. but before you start dragging me to court let me tell you why i won't consider myself patriotic; i fail in comparison to Vicki if you define patriotism the way she does. go ahead, read all about it on her blog and tell me if you would still think yourself as a patriotic citizen of this nation.
i'm looking forward to Friday as much as i'm dreading it, boohoo.
and happy birthday, Singapore.