Relentlessly Superior.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007
[5:36 AM]

One's personality and behaviour is very susceptible to his surrounding. You speak like the people you hang out with. Soon you'll think that you actually sound like the people you spend the most time with. You'll slowly start to adopt their mindset which naturally colours their personality. And then, you're one of them. I think it's scary. We used to argue the importance of individualism, how we would like to stand out from the crowd and simply just be who we are, true to ourselves. But is it possible? We're humans yet we do a better job blending in than chameleons. The more I think about it, the more respect I have for our local poet Boey Kim Cheng for doing what he did. He actually makes a lot of sense thinking he really ought to search for himself, his true identity, truly understanding who he really is, before venturing further into life. We should stop wondering why we always end up making the wrong decisions. Not only because there is such a thing as fate (which relies heavily on the very choices you make and the effort you put in trying to get it by the way), it is also because for most of the time we lack the necessary information and experience that we need to make the wisest decision. I'm just 18 but I always feel like I've wasted most of the time I spent getting here. But I'm thankful to have been given the chance to have a sneak into the wider surrounding.

I am not who I am, sadly.

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