Relentlessly Superior.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011
[4:18 AM]

The last thing I need right now is for this thing that fucks with your heart and your mind to come back haunting you. A little exaggerated perhaps. Clearly I have long given up on it but being human you just cannot run away from it. I have been clean for a good period of time and everything was well until it all came back once again very much unexpectedly. Earlier tonight I opened a new page in this chapter of my life (the longest chapter I reckon) because I thought, wow, finally, something new something fresh and something I have been looking for, somehow. But if there's one thing you should always learn from your life's experiences it's that you should never celebrate too early. I did. I don't think I'm entirely disappointed because I was aware and smart enough to know I shouldn't be banking too much on it. But there's always that sense of possibility lurking somewhere in your head that makes you wish it would go the way you ideally would like it to. It's not all lost but it's just a little dampening. I really thought that was it, there's a chance of scoring. So we close this page and we shall open a new one hopefully in not too distant a future. The possibilities are endless. And I can count on my buddies on this I know I can :)

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